I think the overall thread of my thesis has to do with perception. That is, my perception of my place in the world and how far I’ve come since I left my family. When I say “how far I’ve come” I don’t really mean geographically but more how my world has shifted as I’ve taken on more and more responsibility. I guess it’s sort of like my transition into a adulthood, or what should be adult hood. The last collection of poetry I wrote had to do with my transition to a non-sexual child, to a teen losing her virginity, to romantic escapades as an adult, and really a lot of my work in the past has skirted around being in love and all that comes a long with that. I do sort of address romance in this collection but I have tried to stay away from that topic in this collection. The only work that is really overtly sexual is “Spawning” which isn’t really meant to be sexual. It’s mean to be gross. That is, gross in that there is no real emotion attached to spawning, it’s just physical pleasure, the body, etc; and not in a positive way.
My focus has been mostly on the thoughts in my head that I don’t really want to reveal to anyone, not even to myself. That is the things that I would be embarrassed to admit. One might say this is an airing of my flaws, but not my insecurities per-se. More like my arrogance, and the fact that I rush through things, my mistakes, all of the things that we would rather not talk about and forget. Furthermore, I’ve focused around my family more than I ever have before in my work. Although I have mentioned them in some work previous, before this year I really didn’t want to show any of that to the world. I’m not exactly sure I do now which makes the process of writing about them slow going, but I may just give them all fake names and say I made it all up no matter how similar to my life it may actually be.
Lupe Martinez
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i often say that the best work is written by the subconscious. that's what you're talking about
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