Holy Cannoli, I'm on time.

I'm not sure what the blog is supposed to be about this week so I'm just writing about whatever I want, which is to say, my thesis.

I think that it's definitely coming together in a way that no other collection of mine has done. Although I'm still having issues articulating the thread of my collection of work I think that it's there and that it will reveal itself to me as I continue to work on it. I feel like every poem is a step closer to the revelation of some grander meaning, like every piece rounds out the collection as a whole so that each part is a commentary on the whole.

At the moment I think the whole thing is best articulated as a collection of pieces that deal with perception, and specifically on moments in life (my life) that have shifted my point of view of the operations in the world.

I think that's the most concise way to put it. I've been talking to people outside of Mills and outside of academia about it and that's really the best way to explain it. However, I found that it's also useful to describe my influences, which I made up retroactively. Kind of. I think that Beth Lisick and Miranda July influenced my work because of the following two reasons:
1) I was reading/ went a reading of their work in the time that I was developing and writing my thesis

2) I think that the way that they deal with the day to day is really interesting. Mundane things become evocative. There are interesting and even twisted views of their lives that are hilarious, terrifying, and beautiful. I like that. I want to do that.

Bonus Reason) They're both from the Bay Area and I really like to rep that.

The major issue in my thesis at the moment is mainly: having the time to do it! and the conspicuous lack of sex. If I was doing a deconstructive criticism of this thesis I would say: Why is there no sex? Is she intentionally avoiding sex? The answer is Yes, I was.

I think the idea was that I could just create a piece of work about my shifting perspectives on the world without being bogged down by the topic of sex. I think that I succeeded to a point. I think that by leaving sex out, I also left out a bunch of relationship poetry without leaving out romance. I didn't want to write about relationships or emotional others because I didn't want to go on about it forever as I tend to do when I get on to that facet. In other words, I didn't want to get stuck on poems about how much I loved or hate my ex-boyfriend. Still, I think that I touch on romance in my work and I tried to do it in such a way that it was the kind of romance that is not specific to me.

I don't really know how to bring the sex in, but I think that it will work it's way in if I keep writing. We shall see.